Yeah so... clearly I'm just as crazy as I was three months ago. And hopefully, I'm back. :)
I can't believe the summer is basically over. I mean, I'm starting school Tuesday. Monday is my last day of non-school freedom. Weirddd. I'm hoping that this will be a good school year though, I'm using some online courses along with my usual workbooks/text books. I found some really nice sites that have all kinds of free stuff. And I'm going to make an effort to be a little harder on myself, i.e. writing real papers and having dad check them all. I decided not to take any college classes this year, I'll just wait till next when I'll have my licence and can drive myself. But I finally got a job! At the bakery and cafe in town, I work the register taking and bringing out orders, and doing all kinds of other stuff. I just started training last week, so it's a bit stressful trying to learn everything and not do anything stupid. But I'm catching on, I worked four hours today and four tomorrow. Every one's really nice, there's a whole bunch of girls with the same job as me and both of the owners are nice, although they can be a little intimidating. Monday it was funny, I was closing with Scott (one of the owners) and Erin, and Scott was showing me how to use the mop. It's attached to a bucket cart thing, which you can wheel around, but the cart is super ornery and will NOT allow itself to be steered. He told me all this expecting me to crash into stuff like everyone does, but I had no trouble at all. I felt like a pro. Then of course my beginners luck ran out a little, but still, it made me proud.
The summer's felt kind of long, but short at the same time. Very, very different then last year. I was at the playhouse a lot but it didn't have the same magical feel as last year, which I kind of expected because I knew it was going to be different. But lets see, the summer started with Laura coming for about nine days I think. Her stay here was AMAZING and we had SO much fun. Some of the best memories of the summer came from that, although it feels like a super long time ago now. But that was early June, then beauty and the beast rehearsals started, and that was quite an experience. A lot of fun, and much different then anything I'd been in before. It was awesome to be in a cast where no one fooled around and everyone was completely prepared, it just worked like clock work. Of course it wasn't all fun and games, Adrienne had run in's with everyone, including me, and the cast was NOT very happy some of the time, but for the most part it was a lot of fun. I did realize though that I absolutely do not want to be an actress any more. I'm not sure why, I just lost... my passion for it I guess. I don't feel that I'm really talented enough to make a go at it, and I don't even enjoy it like I used to. It's still fun but I guess the magic is kind of gone. Maybe I just realized it wasn't for me. I still love singing and performing though, so who knows.
After beauty and the beast we had a week of VBS which was surprisingly quite fun. I enjoy working with kids a lot, and what we had to do was teach them the VBS songs and motions, along with a kind of lesson. I was scared stiff but the first day I got up there and suddenly knew what I was doing. I guess God took over for me. :) It was fun though and a good experience. And when that was over the slower part of our summer commenced. I worked on quite a few projects to keep myself busy, and of course there was hanging out with Sean. We had quite a few amazing times with him. One of the best times was when we went to buxton home days with him and Nick and Jessie. We bought these funny toy lightsabers that went all colors but we discovered when we took pictures of them they turned all white, in a shining beam of light. Then we went crazy with the pictures of course, I think I died at least once. It was crazy fun.
I didn't write very much this summer, sadly. I always meant to but for some reason other projects consumed me... I got obsessed with paper cutting because I found this fabulous book of patterns at the library, and I started quilting again. In the middle of summer, I know it doesn't make much sense. I've been trying to read too, not a ton, but I always have a book to chew on. I read both The Host, and Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer and I have to say The Host was way way way way way way WAY better then Breaking Dawn. Which was pretty bad. But The Host was really good! So you know. :P
I've started White Rose over now though, because I'd been trying to work on it and realized the first person just wasn't working... so now I have twenty thousand words to rewrite. Yay. But I need to start working on it consistently again. One of the most annoying things about me is I really have to MAKE myself do stuff. If I don't I sit around on the computer feeling listless and sad and missing someone. Which isn't good, and why I'm FINALLY doing this. But when I'm done writing here I'm going to completely re-do my music playlist because if I had to tell the story of my summer in one way I would do it through music. I discovered or got introduced to so many of my now favorite songs. Music is great.
Speaking of which, I also started playing flute again some. I'm going to have at least three students come school, probably more, and I kind of realized I need to keep myself in shape if I'm going to teach... Madeline is nearing the end of book two already, which is scary and awesome. She's going so fast! But I better be able to keep up with her. I might start taking lessons again if I have time and it works out, if not, I just need to practice. I'm incredibly out of shape, worse then I've ever been I think. Which is frustrating, but my own fault. So I'm gonna work on that.
And... yeah. That's about all that's been going on with me. This summer has been probably the best and worst of my life. Weird how it can be both at the same time. I feel like on one hand I've lost a lot of friends sort of, maybe just from distance or because of certain things, but it's sad. I didn't get to hang out with any of you guys like I wanted to. It hasn't turned out the way I imagined at all. But at the same time I have gained so incredibly much... I am extremely lucky and blessed. More then I will ever be able to say. And I still love you all, more then ever. I hope you all know that. You complete me. ♥
That's it for now.
Over and out. :)